A teenager with ADHD recounts the moment of his life that he realized that something was wrong. Knowing that you don’t have the ability to sit in a classroom like your other classmates and focus on the tasks at hand because your mind is on a ton of other things. In the mind of a child starring out of the window and losing your time in the beautiful wings of a butterfly seems amazing but when you are brought back to life you don’t know what you’ve missed. As a child it was dismissed as an “active imagination” but the older they got the harder focusing became. After being diagnosed all they wanted was to be like the other kids, to have the normal social cues but they didn’t. Their parents wouldn’t allow them to be medicated so their mind lived in a constant burning fire until in their senior year they get tired of fighting and decide that medication is the only way they will be able to experience calm and normalcy. They come up with a plan, after researching the causes of ADHD they realize that a lot of the causes are the fault of decisions the parents have made: drinking and smoking. Thinking this was the answer they go to the doctor’s office and when the results are read, they find out that the parents had been involved in a very violent relationship which they now blame themselves for his disability. In a completely broken moment the child realizes that the best cause of action should have been just asking for what he wanted. Instead he will live the rest of his life with the effects of the pain he caused his parents. A powerful story that goes into the head of a person with ADHD trying to figure out how to get what they want when they, as a child, have no control. ***Performance may be done by a male or female. All edits for this purpose are acceptable by the writer and publisher.